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Well here we are again, your back... With the

same lines, the same things you always say.

"You're sorry; you had to do it to protect you"

What about me in all of this ?

I can't keep going through the same things

again and again.

You want to be friends, as you said "Let's go

back to the basics to see if what we felt was

real"

It was, it is, it will forever remain real for me,

I have nothing to go back and " see"

So once again I agree to come see you. I

knew it was too soon.

As I sat there trying to protect myself, be

strong, don't let him get to you.

Don't look in his eyes; you won't fall in love

all over again if you're strong.

As I try to tell you we both know it will be

only a matter of time that you will have to

leave again.

Leaving me once again to pick me up and

moving on, without you....

You reach out for me, kiss me with that same

way you have about you and once again I

melt completely into your arms and forget all

the pain, even for just one brief moment, I

forget....

Soon its time to say goodbye, you must go

home; I am left standing there to fall apart all

over again.

With the long painful drive home I can't

control my emotions. I am once again back at

the place I swore I would never allow you to

take me again.

So much in love with you, so hurt over not

being able to give to you the one thing I so

desire to. Without being able to share the life

of the only man I've ever loved.

As I arrive home I swear I am done, I don't

want to love you any longer. I want to heal.

Why do you always make this so hard for me,

why do I forgive you for all the hurts ?

Why is it so hard to say Good-bye to you ?

I don't want to love you any longer; it's too

hurtful, too painful.

Please go away and let my soul heal.

Forever you will be a part of me but today I don't feel like loving you